I love Tinker Bell. That is obvious to anyone who has read my blog or seen Tinkerbell tattooed on my chest. Tinker Bell lives with Peter Pan in NeverLand. I have often wondered what it might be like to live there. Today I arrived in a new place that I often thought of as Never Land because I never thought I could get here. I am officially a new resident of “Onederland. “ I weighted in this morning at 199.2 I am so excited and now begin to move towards the next goal. Even though I have arrived in Onederland, my journey is not complete.
In February of 2008, I started a blog series called “Losing It.” I wanted to share a small piece that I wrote from the blog.
I have done OK this past week. I started entering food and exercise in my journal. I didn’t do it perfectly but I started back on it, so that is progress. I will keep you informed on this blog about my weight loss or lack of it. I will try to be as honest as possible.
I shared with the group last night that today is the 2 year anniversary of the death of my friend Jan. That day changed my life. I had never experience grief on that level. I had a very difficult time. I have come to realize that I had been very angry with Jan. She decided after years of struggling with weight to have the stomach bypass surgery. A year later, she died from a massive heart attack.
In March 2008, when Jan died, I had been on an eating and exercise plan and had lost a little over 22 pounds I quit my program, my exercise, etc. I started eating for comfort again. I finally went back to therapy. I decided in January ear that it was time to get back on track. I haven’t been able to really get a handle on it. I have lost about 8 pounds so far, but it has been a battle.
Today is a new day and a new beginning. I want to honor Jan for all of her efforts to change her life. I want to honor her for everything that she was to me in my life. I want to be everything that God intended me to be in this life. My therapist recently said, “You’re amazing even if you don’t see it yourself yet!”
So today, I am going to start realizing that I am an amazing person. I have overcome so much in my life and I have accomplished so much. I can do this.
This has been a lifelong struggle. I will always have to be aware of my eating habits and continue to exercise. But I now live in Onederland and I don’t plan to leave. Thank you all for your support and encouragement along the way!